https://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/Personal essays and reflections by Taha Bouhsine on language, identity, belonging, and life along the way.https://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/how-to-die-digitally/https://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/how-to-die-digitally/I imagine removing the public version of myself. Would I feel relief, miss the archive, or still want someone to notice? An unfinished reflection on being known.Fri, 09 Oct 2026 00:00:00 GMThttps://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/what-would-count-as-proof/https://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/what-would-count-as-proof/A missing step in a proof becomes a doubt about being a mathematician. What happens when understanding the step still does not feel like enough?Sun, 27 Sep 2026 00:00:00 GMThttps://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/a-degree-two-kids-and-a-dacia/https://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/a-degree-two-kids-and-a-dacia/A mathematics degree was once the whole word: success. Around me, it came with a future attached—teaching, marriage, two children, a Dacia. I wanted the degree. The rest was still a question.Fri, 11 Sep 2026 00:00:00 GMThttps://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/the-price-of-belonging/https://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/the-price-of-belonging/The neighborhood that helped raise me also expected a say in who I became. On gratitude, saying no, and wanting to stay close without staying the same.Thu, 10 Sep 2026 00:00:00 GMThttps://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/the-life-i-thought-i-was-leaving/https://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/the-life-i-thought-i-was-leaving/After a car hit me, I recorded the passwords I could remember. I thought I might lose my memory. I also felt relief. I am still trying to understand the life inside that contradiction.Wed, 09 Sep 2026 00:00:00 GMThttps://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/support-has-a-timestamp/https://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/support-has-a-timestamp/Congratulations are not back pay. On remembering who made room for the work before there was anything to applaud.Mon, 07 Sep 2026 00:00:00 GMThttps://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/i-never-felt-qualified-so-i-learned-to-speak-anyway/https://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/i-never-felt-qualified-so-i-learned-to-speak-anyway/I feared my JAX and Flax talk at Google’s MP7 was too basic. Some experts found it too advanced. On the audience I imagined and the one I needed to reach.Sat, 29 Aug 2026 00:00:00 GMThttps://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/i-had-to-teach-it-before-i-could-understand-it/https://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/i-had-to-teach-it-before-i-could-understand-it/I rebuilt mathematics in English. Then I tried to explain deep learning in Darija, and the missing steps stopped being mine alone to overlook.Tue, 25 Aug 2026 00:00:00 GMThttps://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/the-language-i-could-speak-but-couldnt-think-in/https://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/the-language-i-could-speak-but-couldnt-think-in/Tachelhit and Darija were where the world first reached me. School asked me to know it in Arabic, then French. I learned the words. Understanding took longer.Mon, 24 Aug 2026 00:00:00 GMThttps://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/the-ancestors-we-were-taught-to-forget/https://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/the-ancestors-we-were-taught-to-forget/From childhood weddings near Agadir to amarg, ahwach and the manuscripts of the Souss: what it means to inherit more than a melody, and to make something new with the memory.Mon, 10 Aug 2026 00:00:00 GMThttps://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/changing-wells/https://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/changing-wells/A quiet office, a break from the noise, and the embarrassment of finding how local my confidence was. On changing environments and learning to be new again.Mon, 27 Jul 2026 00:00:00 GMThttps://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/wasted-potential/https://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/wasted-potential/I chose the WASTED POTENTIAL sticker and threw my research poster away. On unanswered drafts, seniority, credit, and wanting to keep doing the work.Sun, 26 Jul 2026 00:00:00 GMThttps://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/what-keeps-me-motivated/https://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/what-keeps-me-motivated/Curiosity, spite, and the people who keep me going. On the reasons I work, the pleasure of understanding, and the difficulty of knowing when to stop.Wed, 08 Jul 2026 00:00:00 GMThttps://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/i-already-failed-at-football/https://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/i-already-failed-at-football/The news should have felt like winning. It didn’t. Football still does. On the room that taught me what a victory was, and learning to celebrate a life it could not imagine.Tue, 07 Jul 2026 00:00:00 GMThttps://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/generation-zero/https://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/generation-zero/First in my family to finish elementary school. On the shoulders I did not inherit, the classmates missing from the ending, and the sentence my grandmother left me.Mon, 06 Jul 2026 00:00:00 GMThttps://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/getting-zucked-a-nonprofit-story/https://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/getting-zucked-a-nonprofit-story/We planned a nonprofit. Then came a sole-owner LLC and a request to assign the project's IP. I read the document twice and did not sign.Wed, 01 Jul 2026 00:00:00 GMThttps://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/san-francisco-dreams-delulu-messiah/https://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/san-francisco-dreams-delulu-messiah/I came for the ambition. I recognize the grandiosity too, including when it starts forming in my own mouth.Wed, 01 Jul 2026 00:00:00 GMThttps://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/validation-peers-and-the-mentor-trap/https://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/validation-peers-and-the-mentor-trap/I spent months teaching and checking the work while calling it a partnership of equals. On the conversation I avoided and the early emails I still cannot reread.Wed, 01 Jul 2026 00:00:00 GMThttps://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/the-universe-is-the-better-teacher/https://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/the-universe-is-the-better-teacher/What can correct a model besides our approval? A question about training signals, human knowledge, and learning from a world that can prove us wrong.Wed, 24 Jun 2026 00:00:00 GMThttps://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/am-i-building-the-ship-or-the-flood/https://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/am-i-building-the-ship-or-the-flood/After the conviction that made me begin comes a harder question about what the work enables, and whether good intentions are enough to keep going.Thu, 18 Jun 2026 00:00:00 GMThttps://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/what-am-i-if-not-the-things-i-make/https://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/what-am-i-if-not-the-things-i-make/What happens to my sense of myself when making gets easier to delegate? A question about craft, usefulness, and wanting credit.Tue, 16 Jun 2026 00:00:00 GMThttps://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/building-spaceships-and-surviving-floods/https://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/building-spaceships-and-surviving-floods/The conviction that makes you begin before anyone agrees the work is necessary, and the responsibility of trying to build something that will hold.Mon, 15 Jun 2026 00:00:00 GMThttps://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/ai-illiteracy-pt1/https://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/ai-illiteracy-pt1/A 2021 argument for AI education in Morocco, concerned with who gets to understand, question, and build the technologies a country adopts.Wed, 22 Sep 2021 00:00:00 GMThttps://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/poem-0-1/https://www.tahabouhsine.com/blog/writeups/poem-0-1/A four-line fragment: data science by day, Skywolf by night, and code that rhymes.Mon, 20 Sep 2021 00:00:00 GMT